And We Thought The Broken Arm Was Bad!

First off, let me start by saying Morgy is bound to give me a heart attack and she is only 2. This past week I experienced the worst week of my entire live. Never before have I been so scared, sad, confused, anxious, worried, sleep deprived and helpless all at once. The worst thing imaginable, I now have expierenced and that is watching your child be so horribly sick, lying in hospital bed being poked to death with needles, struggling to breathe, and you sitting there watching with no way of helping.
So last Monday night, Morghan woke up in the middle of the night and said mommy I don't feel good. I went in and checked her and she had a slight fever and a little runny nose. I gave her some Tylenol and she fell back asleep. I took her to Day Care on Tuesday because I had a Dr's appointment out of town, while at my Dr's appt. the lady called and said Morghan was miserable and had a fever, so Nate went and picked her up. I still was just thinking she had a horrible cold and was treating her with Tylenol and Motrin and kept her Humidifier on. Wednesday was no different, but a little worse, she layed on the couch all day (which is very unusual for her) I called every doctor to get her in but no one could get me in. So, Wednesday night she was coughing really bad, I went in to check on her and she was struggling to breathe. Her respirations were 70 breathes per minute (normal 12-20) her temp was 104.0, and she was not really responding to me. I ran downstairs and grabbed my nursing bag so I could check her oxygen saturation, which was 72% (normal for toddler is 95%-100%). So I ran in and told Nate we were going the the ER. At 3:00 in the morning we scooped her out of bed and away we went. Morghan's vitals had gotten worse by the time we got there and they immediately starting running every test possible. They checked her for RSV,strep, Flu all which were negative. They poked her 5 times and finally got an IV in her to bring her fever down. Finally after a chest xray they found that she had Pneumonia in both lobes and surrounding her sternum. They immediately started antibiotics on her and admitted her to the hospital. Wednesday,Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday were pure hell. I think Morghan had a total of 10 sticks for IV Starts, 4 blood draws, 3 chest xrays, 3 nasal swabs, 2 mouth swabs. She was woke up every 2 hours for breathing treatments and vital checks. She struggled to breathe and cried all the time to go home. Although her Pneumonia was getting better her symptoms weren't. We walked her for the first time on Saturday night and she was so weak she would fall over. All she kept saying was "I want to go home mommy. Those people hurt me."Sunday afternoon, they decided they would let her go, only on oxygen and breahing treatments at home. They also left her IV in because she is not drinking so I would have to give her IV fluids if she continues to not drink. She is still only at 85-89% on her oxygen intake. She continues with two antibotics,pain meds, cough medicine and breathing treatments every 4 hours. We had a checkup today and the Pneumonia is still there but is definately getting better. The doctor is just very concerned about keeping her hydrated. I have to take her in tomorrow and if she's lost a pound he is admitting us again for fear of dehydration. I haven't slept in 5 days, and within those 5 days all I've done is cry. I seriously feel for those parents who have chronically ill kids who have to sit in hospitals day in and day out and be so helpless. I take for granted the fact that Morghan has been such a healthy child. I would never wish upon anyone what we have gone through this week. Thank goodness for my amazing parents who came down and helped and sat in the hospital room day in and day out with us, my mom would cook and bring us dinners and in between go home and walk our dogs. Truly, I don't know what I would have done without the love and support of my family and friends through this hard time. We are not out of the woods yet but Morghan played for the first time tonight so I think things are looking good.